Due to fear of rejection, you become unable to express it after you’ve faced rejection every single time you tried to bond with someone..
The fear makes you change. Your way of conversing changes; you start playing with words & their literal and metaphorical meanings and people start to avoid you even before you begin to fall for them. And you notice this pattern, which makes you even more isolated. In isolation, the past finds way to get to you easily and thus it gets harder and harder for you to move on to someone new.
How do you get out of this vicious cycle?
You don’t. Until your saviour, your God sends help.
For me it was in Human form.
He set me right. He understood me without judging me. I’m grateful for that. Grateful for him.